God’s love endures – even though… I know this to be true. It is an important and critical truth to remember when dealing with relationships.
I have remained faithful to what God called me to do, and have been through the ringer. So when He told me to, I stayed in my marriage and worked hard to do what was right. I worked to love my husband no matter what and be the best wife I knew how. You’d think that means my husband worked at it too. You might also think God told me to stay because he was repairing my marriage. And it looked that way for a while.
We have free will, however, and only when we accept the offer God is giving do we reap the benefits. We cannot change on our own to be “good enough” to then be a child of God. And when we get that backwards we will ultimately fall back into our old patterns. We have not actually become a new creation, we have tried to look like we were.
This is what happened with my husband. He was trying in his own power. He was not able to fully trust God to do it for him. So he fell and fell hard.
What this means for me…
For me this means God has now released me from this marriage. It’s hard, so hard, and not what I wanted for myself or my family. But as this verse reminds us – God’s love endures forever. I know that even though it didn’t work out the way I expected, God is still love. He still loves me, my family and my husband. He is still working for our good. I don’t know yet how that will look, but I know it to be true. I know that even though I don’t understand how, God is working in and for both of us.
The good of our family is what God’s goal is, including my husband, inasmuch as He has called us to His purposes. Pray for us dear friends as we move into this new season of life, for wisdom for me and salvation, sanctification, healing and mercy for my husband. Pray for The Lord to give wisdom and the ability to forgive to our boys. Without forgiveness, only bitterness is left.